I really should be going to bed.. but instead I am here in the late hours of the night blogging... I just have to get it out or I won't sleep, at least not peacefully.
Ryder continues to do so well, yet we had our first setback. I knew one of these times when we showed up at the NICU there would be some bad news. He had been having some pretty bad reflux. When I heard this I thought, well of all the set backs things could be a lot worse. They bumped his feeding times up to a hour and took out some supplements they were adding to see if that helped; and it already seems to have helped and he didn't spit up at all this afternoon or evening. So I was so happy that this set back seems to already be doing better.
When we went to the NICU tonight we saw that he is just in a regular bed! I was so happy to see that. So in one day we had a set back and great progress.
Eric, his mom, and I returned from the NICU tonight feeling good. We arrived home to a quiet home... then I heard my father-in-law's voice over the baby monitor. "It sounds like daddy is home, I will go get him and be right back" It turns out while we were gone Alex woke up just absolutely screaming and calling out for me. He said she looked terrified. He just stayed down by her for 45 minutes in which time she never went back to sleep.
Someone clone me please. I need to be in two places at once. I am so torn... I have a baby that is receiving wonderful care but I need to be with at times to help and bond with and help learn how to eat... but I have two wonderful children that are now two weeks into what was supposed to be a one week vacation.... I have two children who are greatly loved and being taken care of so well by family, but we aren't home and I cannot always be with them.
I am beginning to get just a glimpse of what my mom went through the first five years of my life. Before my heart surgery I was in and out of the hospital practically every holiday; I have 4 older brothers and sisters, plus one younger sister that was born during all of this. How did she do it?
Someone clone me. And while you are at it clone my husband. Tomorrow night he heads back to California for work. He will return on Friday..but it might be five long days.
Today Lucas said to Eric: "Too bad I am not a real inventor. Then I could invent a robot that could do your job for you so you didn't have to go back to work."
So cloning and robots requested here. It's not too much to ask is it?
Somebody clone me.. or at least put me to bed. Maybe things will feel better in the morning.