Since the contractions had slowed down they moved me out of labor and delivery last night and into the room I will probably occupy after I have the baby. They monitor me a little less frequently so I can rest more. But since they did not move me until almost 10:00 last night and then needed to get everything reset up it was a late night.
Oh and waking up at around 1:00 AM soaked as I leaked a lot more is always pleasent too let me tell you. I slept pretty good the rest of the night but am starting to have contractions again every 6-7 mins. The Dr. is going to come back in in about 1-3 hrs to reevaluate. I have almost hit that critical 48 hr period for the steroids to be at there best for Ryder's lung development.
All I can say is thank goodness for family. My brother and his wife stopped by yesterday with a bag full of clothes for the baby including premie clothes...I must admit seeing those tiny clothes nearly broke my heart. My other sister-in-law Rachel left her own kids with her husband to spend the night at my in-laws to help with Alex in the night... She woke up about every two hrs last night... This has definitely harder for her than Lucas.
It breaks my heart to know that Lucas is going to miss his last two weeks of preschool that he loves so much and the swim lessons we signed him up for in June. Breaks my heart to see how torn and worried Eric is about me and the baby and what in the world he is going to do about work plus the cold he was just barely got over is back. Plus just even with so much family and wonderful support here how long will the kids survive away from home.... I so want the baby to grow as big as possible before coming but I am so ready to be all done and back home all 5 of us.
Thank you all for your support and I am so grateful for this outlet to vent as I really do try and be too strong and tough sometimes... Letting the tears flow while I type this has been wonderful. And now I just need to publish this and stop rereading it so I will stop crying.