Well looks like I will probably be discharged today. It is so weird to think I will be leaving the hospital without Ryder... But I know he is being taken care of and I can guarantee you I will be here a lot. Eric and I went down for his morning care. Eric took his temperature, changed his diaper and held him a bunch for the first time. His entire head fits so easily into Eric's hand. While we were down there he opened his eyes more than I have ever seen him before... He just seemed to stare at Eric for a long time. He slept so peacefully in Eric's arms and they even had to turn down his oxygen levels all of the way as he was so peaceful, and breathing so well that he was getting too much air.
My wonderful mother-in-law is at the store returning the new maternity shirts she had just bought for me last Monday, since I still had another month and a half of pregnancy... She is exchanging them for things I need now that I obviously had not packed for my vacation. In fact until she gets back I can't leave the hospital, unless I want to go home in my gown that is.... It will be so nice to have some real clothes again and start to feel like a normal person.
I will still be so dependent upon others though since I can't drive for 6 weeks after a c-section... And I am not always the best person at letting others help me... I want to do it. So it is a bit humbling to have to rely on others so much. I am just so grateful I have others that can help. Now I just need to help Ryder get strong so we can all go home together.. Now that will be a good day.