Sometimes I sit here feeling like what else did I use to blog about besides the baby...This is my life right now. I know someday things will be back to some sort of normal but it is just so hard to see that right now. It is like some weird other universe. I spent the morning with my little guy. I first went into the NICU and just sat there almost wondering what should I do. He was sleeping very peacefully as they had recently just sedated him a bit for an echo... As he is a fighter and when he gets mad his oxygen levels like to jump all over the place.
But then I got to take his temperature and change his diaper... A kind of tricky thing to do through the two holes in the side of his bed... Oh and he is all boy, he peed while I was changing him of course. And then I just got to hold him and try and nurse him. Holding him for that time made it so much more real. As I looked down at how perfectly his little body fit in my arms he didn't seem so little anymore...though he truly is.
My sister-in-law Rachel took some beautiful pictures of Ryder the other day. You can see them on her blog here.
And I am working around some blogger kinks and actually able to add this picture too.
This was from Lucas and Alex's first visit to their brother.