Some of you have asked me how I can possibly blog now, the answer is simple, a one-word answer: selfishness. Life is insanely busy, especially dealing with Ryder's reflux and trying to fatten him up, but I need to blog. I need to vent (see yesterdays post), I need to journal and I need the compassion and support I feel from your comments. So thank you.
Unfortunately, this insanity has made me unable to leave the support and love on your blogs like I want too, lots of lurking going on while I nurse Ryder though. So thank you for indulging me in this one sided relationship. I will be less selfish someday, promise!
Some of my posts have made a few of you baby hungry; well just in case the time is not right for you, I will now share the antidote.
When I took Ryder for his two month checkup the first thing the Dr. said is he isn't growing enough. At 2 months he only weighed 5 lbs 11 oz. So this last week I have been doing everything I can to fatten him up.
My day goes something like this:
6:50 AM Change Ryder's diaper
7:00 AM- Nurse Ryder 10-15 minutes on each side
7:25-Supplement nursing with bottle
7:35-Hold Ryder upright for preferably at least 30 minutes to help with his reflux
7:45 AM Pump to help increase milk supply, so position Ryder's bouncy seat to try and keep him upright while I pump
8:00 AM-Watch him spit up and have incidents
And then about 9:30 I get to do it all again.
On Wednesday Ryder spit up 12 different documented times (i.e. it was enough to make it worth keeping track of), of those 12 times 4 were the screaming chocking incidents. So yeah, my days are just a little full. But you know I would do it all over again ten times for this little guy. And it is working, at his weigh-in yesterday he is 6 lbs 9.5 oz! He almost gained a pound in a week!!
So thanks for letting me be selfish. Thanks for all of your kind comments and support during this crazy time. I know a lot of people have their own trials which are probably even harder than mine... but as I have learned no matter what your trial is, it is your trial and is hard when you are in it.
And do you know what would make this selfish heart so happy, if lots of you linked up next Wednesday the 28th with your Ten Things to Smile About Lists (shameless plug I know)