And maybe that's okay.
But at the same time, right now I am in the process of preparing the second year of my blog to print (this November will be four years blogging). I am finding old gems, I am reading through memories I almost forgot. I am reading Ryder's birth story which I didn't document anywhere else.
And I am glad.
Glad I have taken the time, the time to document, the time just to write; the time to let it all out some weeks, the good, the bad and the funny.
And then Ryder grabs my hand, making me go with him. He throws a football in a basket.
One, two, three footballs. Then gives me a high five. Then he pulls each ball out one at a time and hands them to me. Looking deep into my eyes every time he hands me a ball. Seeming to say, "mom, are you watching? Are you really there?"
And yes, yes I am.
I need my blog, I need this outlet. I need the friendships I have made.
And I need to be there for my kids.
So if I see to come and go, don't worry I am never far and you are all always on my mind. And maybe just celebrate with me because if I am not here it means I am where I really should be.
Linking up with Shell's Pour Your Heart Out- it is her 2-year anniversary of this meme.
P.S. But I will be here for Proud Mommy Moments tomorrow- so come back and link up :)